The Gifts of Paradox

Photo credit: Wisdom of the Four Winds by Barry Brailsford, Illustrated by Cecilie Okada

Greetings Star Seeds!

It is safe to say that I have been stalked lately by the word Paradox. It has come up too many times to ignore it. Last night, when I chose 4 divination cards, the word paradox was in 3 of the messages. OK I'm paying attention. The definition I resonated with is "paradox is something that seems self-contradictory, but upon closer investigation can reveal deeper truths." I have personally been dancing with a lot of questions about the direction of my path and the way forward. What has been feeling like a lot of work, and lots of obstacles and feeling submerged in the watery depths of emotional turmoil, fleeting glimpses of clarity and vacillation between floating down the river of life and being pulled under by a current that spins me in another direction. Often within the same day! The shit is getting stirred up in all areas of my life. And rather than answers I am drowning in questions. After contemplating the divination cards, an insight followed...OH! This is what Jupiter in Scorpio in my first house is offering me. Jupiter, the planet of expansion entered Scorpio, sign of composting, letting go, alchemy and transformation. And for me it is happening in my first house of self-identity. 

For the last couple years I have been on a journey to invoke a template of ease, joy, grace and play as the overarching theme in my life and to help facilitate these attributes for my clients. The dismantling of the previous patterns that I had been indoctrinated in that revered structures based on striving, struggle, surviving and suffering weren't about to be ushered out without a fight. As we unravel that which we are outgrowing and wish to shift, the release process brings up all the unhealed parts, all the wounds, all the fragments. We dip and dive and wonder if the dance is worth it. I'm here to tell you it is. The butterfly can't remain in the cocoon, even if it feels safe and warm. 

Life rarely follows a linear line. Being one who is aligned with a more circular approach to things, I have always searched for hidden truths. Often we have to take steps that seem paradoxical in order to move forward. At times we need to go into the darkness to retrieve the fragments of light that can only be found there. Sometimes we have to leave to find our way back home. Do not fear this. Do approach the shadows with love. Remember that everything we seek is within us and we are receiving exactly what we need at the perfect time. Even if it is the opposite direction of where we think we need to be going. So if you are experiencing any of these energies, allow them the space to shower you with their wisdom and blessings, even if it feels like you are being stripped of everything. That may be the very thing you need to be who you are meant to be. 

With Infinite Love and Gratitude, Claudia